URGE

I can feel the torment from within as I fight the urge that tries to justify the lighting of a cigarette. For far too long nicotine has had free reign to travel my veins and arteries unfettered. Well from now on the journey is over, No more will I be a slave to the poison that robs my health and takes my years or the precious moments off the tail end of my life. I am no longer willing to forfeit one second to a killer. Too much may be just around the corner to allow a cigarette to hinder. I have so much to live for, and every precious second I have is a gift to be enjoyed and breathed in at full lung capacity. I have to make a confession. I have replaced one addiction with another. Like so many people that struggle with addictions, I have willingly put aside nicotine for the euphoric endorphins that course through my body after a good sweaty workout at the Gym. I guess it could be worst, I could fill the void of smoking with chocolate or some other fat-promoting agent. I guess if I had to quit the Gym “Cold Turkey” it wouldn’t be so difficult? A couple of months behind the habit now and I am feeling great. I still have the urge sometimes, but thankfully the will to be healthy for the rest of my life strongly outweighs any lie that I need the nicotine. I’m not really sure of the date I quit, I refuse to give the habit the dignity of being remembered with milestones before or after. It became the enemy within, working to destroy the gift of life I was given. The sad thing is I invited it in. So now the invitation has been revoked…and it’s off to the Gym I go!